Aliens? Are you serious?!

Everyone is interested in whether there is life beyond our little planet Earth. And somewhat the answer has been obvious for many decades. Yes, we are not alone, although we in our Godly complexes and scientific reasons would like to be.
The evidence have lead to many suggestions of beings not from Earth. We all know stories of flying saucers and aliens trying to take over Earth, perhaps because of the water resources. But what is the truth? What to believe and what not?
I do not claim to know it as a lot of people as well. But as I have seen and heard from other sources, they are not violent. Otherwise they would have taken over the planet a long time ago.
So what really happened in area 52? According to witnesses (people working there before) have claimed to see many events of having aliens in the complex itself. The sources are all over Youtube, but hey, must be careful which one to believe.
Everything in my perspective seems to follow more like the scenes in Stargate (and yes, I am a fan of science fiction. Particularly, I find these series interesting.). That aliens help humanity to fight against the evil of different worlds. Of course we have yet to find the mysterious gate, which we are able to travel to different worlds. Although, there are claims of 10 dimensions, and some of the extraterrestrials originating from other dimensions.
So, if we take all these claims as some part of truth (Although, this truth is partly real... the part being having witnesses seeing aliens.), then shouldn´t we be able to make some research according to that. Unfortunately, all evidence seem to be hidden. And I have reached to a dead end.
Going with the stories that science fiction presents us, is just simply not enough anymore. The truth must be told.
Is the human kind ready for truth? Maybe humanity has seen this coming a long way, since we seen the aliens existing in ancient times. We would like to give credit to human race for building the pyramids, but they did not do this alone. Even my grandmother has seen the famous flying saucers. And many stories have been told from generations as fairy tales or fictional poems. So, shouldn´t we be ready a long time ago. Wait... if there is truth, why are we not aware of this. Someone is hiding it for our own protection or...
you know, this still keeps going to a dead end... In the end, all I know is that, personally I am interested in truth and how to make the world go on without destroying itself, so we would be ready for the higher technology and moral perspectives of the other worlds. At the moment, I presume the world would take aliens as a threat... thank you countless movies and secrecy :S
Maybe the first step would be to stop hiding things which are actually important to all men equally. And secondly, power goes only as far as people let it go... because a human being is not evil. We are actually quite peaceful and happy, if we are able to do what we choose. And who says we can´t. Oh, wait... the system...
So... to sum all this up, love yourself and the world you live in. And find proof for things you do not understand. It is part of growing up as a planet... as humanity, whoever we are, where ever we are.
P.S. There have been made countless efforts for people seeing and wanting to see the truth. Great thanks for them for providing some information!

What the heck´ happened to the school system

Haven´t posted for a long time. Just a few months, but still feel like I am missing something from my life. Since I have holiday, then I am just relaxing and taking the time off. Some events in past months have triggered my mind to another topic. Probably I knew this was coming a mile away.
So, long time ago I signed up with dancing lessons. I really liked salsa, and after a few lessons, I met a lovely guy who I was dancing with as well. There was something in him (hmm... there always is.. you know, one of these mysterious type) and we kept on talking until he asked me out. And since that day on, we have been how do you put it lived-happily-ever-after story. And it truly is.
That was a little brighter story. The other one is how things go wrong and there is absolutely nothing you can do about it. Even an avalanche would be an easier solution... a bit overreacting, but wait til you know what I mean.
And I though that I was signing up for something good, but it turned out that having 5 students in a classroom is not the kind of idealistic situation you would hope for. Especially, when you are international people in an other specific nationalities´ classroom, while you were not talking to each other at all and everything seemed kind of unethical. So, we had no respect, but we thought we still could study. No problem - yeah :S (sigh!) The teachers also had something in their minds ... or maybe not, I can´t be sure (and I am really sorry if I am being unfair to anyone in this situation). Of course you know the story about Cinderella and the Fairy God Mother. The teachers were like the Fairy God Mother - they were taking our emotions into account and we had to feel like children, since there was only five of us left. So, simply put, there was the situation of unethical working environment, where the teachers are teachers and are not. Let me explain the not part - that also meant that in the exam we found out (to our surprise, really :O) that we had failed the exam. Because we did not have sufficient knowledge of the course. (And yeah, of course I am angry at the fact that I failed.) In the school I am studying, I still feel like I am a child. And the teachers treat you like one as well. I do not know exactly how is this supposed to help us in real life... and how does telling us in the end of the semester help all this situation. But then again, it just might be me.
There was also a possibility of redoing the exam, but what would be the point in doing that. Going on with the same problems is, seriously, painful enough and to tell the truth, I had it with treating us special, just because there were few of us and throwing us around as we had no say in this. So, what do I do now? Go back to my own country and start all over again, getting a lot of experience from this. I don´t think so... I will give the school one more chance. Most likely finish with AP degree or if everything goes more than better, then finish with Bachelor :)
Until I wonder and criticize, cry in the pillow and throw things at something, until then I have time to set a focus on the upcoming semester. And what will all that do...
who knows...
The future is full of unexpected thins like me finding a perfect companionship. Except his sleeping habits :D
Moral of this adventure: never go to university if you have a class of 12 people.
Love you guys!

About Ambition

So before going to sleep I was thinking of doing some writing, since I have felt like this for a long time. The topic is about how far can we actually reach and why should we do this. This time it is a bit more serious talk...

There are several people, who will just live for a purpose of knowledges, that one day they will be good at what they do. I admire them, since they are my friends and if not, then people who I am glad to claim as competition. But since I also see how they are slowly killing their lives with that goal, I start to wonder, is this what life is really about? Must we suffer loneliness and solitude in order to become good at what we do? And believe me, they are doing this day after day.

Scientifically, we are more able to work if we have endorphins in our bodies and those we get from laughter and socializing. Usually, if we study too hard, we do not have time for these. And still grabbing the next book to eat and understand would be the ultimate solution.

I have thought that a human brain can go on, because there is no limit – only emotional. In this conclusion, I have understood that studying can happen all the time. So, why did I stop my rapid studying mania?

One reason was that I finally understood that there are more things in life than just studying. You also must learn how to live and enjoy it. Also, we value the people, who are good at what they do, but we can also do those things with a different attitude. I guess these people aren’t exactly unhappy, they have just lost the true meaning of life.

This is the main problem of human nature – we need knowledges. Very distinctively described in “Faust”. Faust was so intelligent, but there was something still missing from his life, and that was brought to him by the devil. Falling in love is a distraction, at least to a person, whose sole goal is to get more and more information into his/her brain. And in the end these people forget how to live their life. Does intelligence make us more smarter about the world? Does it give us the comfort that we are on the right track and do not have to switch trains? Or are emotions just killing our brain and human nature?

Dwelling on the human nature, we are created as animals to follow our basic instincts. We are meant to enjoy emotions, but since a human brain has a giant capacity, then the ones who develop it and enjoy doing this process, they love (literally) their work. What will become of these people by the end of their life? Do they have children by the end of 40? Will they become rich and famous, as this is the ultimate goal? Do they know how to achieve these by not killing themselves before that?

Or is this life just a fiction – we cant, simply is not possible, to have everything what a human soul requires. We just have to make a compromise between our emotions and ultimate goals of fortune. But the wise people know that not everything that is only one obsessive goal will bring happiness. It might advance the world like Einstein or themselves, like Rockafeller in his early age. But in my opinion, that is not what life should be about.

I guess, every person in the end finds his or her way, but my ultimate goal it to have everything – I want to have the time for studying, for socializing and resting. And in the end achieving what I want in this life. And that is one ambition that takes some time. There is one thing I have learned from my mistakes and that is that it takes real courage to face, what you really want and what is important, combined with your true nature.

I am not single anymore :D

Here it goes – I am in love. There, I said it. Anyway, it feels wonderful. I am really happy and I keep daydreaming and thinking about this wonderful guy. He is nice and means a lot to me. Okei, fine, I will not tell you the whole story, but obviously we have some issued… like any other couple. But the thing is – why does it seem like the end of the world when we can´t solve them? May be it is just me…

I am the sort of person, who likes harmony in a relationship. So if there are problems, I will try to solve them or make an elephant from an ant. Well, the last one works sometimes too, but the mainly, if a couple has issues, they seriously need to talk. But sometimes you can not talk and there things are better left alone.

Serious topic, but I still wonder why we do it, if we alone have problems and in a relationship we have problems. And then we have double problems. Because I do not think that you can always share your problems with another… some are too private. Anyway, why not be single, figure out your life and then make a lovely connection, without too many big problems.

Or just be in a relationship when you are young and learn from your mistakes when you are older and wiser… probably a part of growing up.

But I still justify having a relationship at young age, because we need some comfort from people our age and we need some romance. Some just need it more than others, but how long can a person be alone… of course being single has its own privileges – you can do whatever you want and without any consequences. But it is not the same as having a certain person to care and cuddle and hold hands… isn’t this what the movies always show us. In some ways it is true – I feel better with another person next to me and telling me some silly jokes or serious stories. That is the privilege of a relationship.

And the best part is that your health is better, scientifically proven. These are these stupid facts that if you kiss your partner a lot, your immune system will be more resistant. And if you hug a person or hold hands, your body will be more relaxed and full of endorphins. Jei, happy molecules.

But no one told you about the heart aches, when you were younger. So, this is the main reason, why some would like to be rather alone and there are those, who just do not care if they are in or out. And I still keep wondering, how do other people live… do they care or not. Are they in or out. Or, as nowadays, somewhere in the middle, with doubts.

I know I am in. I am totally in. You know when you are stuck on a deserted island and you see a white ship in the distance and you watch it leave and you feel sadness in your heart. This is how I feel sometimes. But I am getting used to it… and I will say this, if people really care, they will make it work. At least I used to believe this, when I was smaller. I still hope it is true. There are different roads to take. We never know why we take these steps, but we choose - left instead of right. And there is no turning back… there can be a stop for peeing only.

P.S. I love you, my dear! And I wish you good night!

Get a Backbone, Arthur! (“Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy”)

I went to a fantastic birthday party yesterday. My friend had planned some quizzes for the guests. Exactly, tests, for fun! It felt amazing, because we did something else, besides drinking and even educate ourselves a little bit. And with great company.

Why does it always feel like this, when you do something useful in a party, the company your in, feels like family and if you just spend your evening drinking, smoking and gossiping, you feel like shit the next morning? You get my point – it is about meaningless, boring, one-of-a-kind situations, which keep repeating themselves every party.

We are supposed to be educated. We are students and we must appreciate the education, whatever it is. We will make it work for us, not the opposite way around. So, isn’t it part of our education to have parties, which are more than shallow gatherings of youth, which we are long beyond due date?

Of course, I am not the example being held in this case, because as a Libra, I am considered a “social butterfly”. I enjoy going from one party to another, but that not being the point, I will still rather go to parties which have something to do, rather than “do”.

But it is amazing, how many people really are interested in these things. I thought for a second, that I am lost in this world, by wanting to study and appreciate learning. In real life I am considered a geek. That was what I thought! It turns out that I am not the only one, who thinks like that. Especially amongst older generation – well, not exactly too old, just a few years, but you got the point already .

So, shouldn’t we learn from elderly (just kidding ;) and plan our parties for more than just wasting our precious time, which we do not have anyway, with a bonus of good company :) Wouldn’t we rather be educated than fun?

Or we can see things, as they are in American movies – “Lets party! Meaninglessly and in style!”

I don’t want to be a party pooper, because I really enjoy having fun. I think most of us do. But my point being the way it is done. Quality or quantity will have a big effect on your brain soon, so our mind should be made up soon! Do party in style or we party in “style”!

Oh, and I will thank my friend for a fabulous party and for opening my mind with his courage!

Hey, we all make mistakes!

Every time when we even try to correct our mistakes or say to another, that we would like to turn back the time, the other always says: “It is not possible.” True, but what if it were!? Would we do things the same way or change it completely? And eventually how big of a difference would it really make, since we can not change the way things are anyway. - A bit serious topic.

A human is meant to make mistakes. I make mistakes every day, starting from the smallest, like forgetting to buy washing liquid or more important – bread. And then I curse myself, that how could I have been so distracted. And promising myself, that next time, I will make a list with CAPITAL LETTERS all colored in bright yellow. But, washing liquid is not the most important and vital thing (yeah, bread is kind of important!). The more responsibility we take, harder the decisions will be. And the worse part is that we enjoy these decisions, until we know for sure that things have gone totally wrong.

The situations always have a tendency to do that (and we are still amazed) – it is like a sequence of events. You are interested, you get comfortable, you get too comfortable and then something bad happens, just because you were too lazy. But then again, what is wrong of allowing yourself some relaxation time after you got bored. Like a nice vacation in the Bahamas or somewhere like that. To take some time off, rethink your values and then just come back and see if this really works for you. And if it doesn’t, then hey, it didn’t and you just move on with your life. And that is that. Nothing difficult, right!

Now comes the hardest part: once in a sunny evening drink too much or are emotionally unstable (hm, I mean tired and things have gone bad, again!!!) and then you just start to think, oh, why didn´t things go the other way (a better and more convenient way). And we swear to ourselves, that we could have made it. Personally, I never have completely understood, why the heck I feel like crap, just because I can´t turn back the time.

Wouldn´t it be nice if you could remake a decision? You have the experience now; you know that you do! Well for me, the best thing that I could ever learn from all the “shots”, is that practice makes perfect. But, I did not know what will happen, when I was 10, right. We do not know everything when we are just children. Anyway, I sometimes miss the time, which I could have spent on, for example, learning to play the piano properly or reading a book, which I have no time to read now. Because eventually we have only a limited amount of time given on this planet and if we do not use it, now that would be a shame.

No one is perfect and we should all be allowed to make mistakes and never correct them. Because we learn from them after the experience, and we become more educated (on the part how to live a life in 66 years). But there will be times, when we really have the opportunity to make a mends; we can make a correction to our mistakes – by taking a shopping list with big capital letters and adopting it into our lifestyle. May be then, I would not feel so bad about forgetting about the bread.

Treat others like you want yourself to be treated.

There is this dilemma I have to face. I haven’t done anything wrong, except only in my own point of perspective (but that is up to my ego and me to solve). But everyone else also has the right to criticize my actions – for their own pleasure, I guess. I do not say that I am without any guilt. Oh no, there were times, when I enjoyed gossip. It was like my second occupation (after being a cahier, which kind of makes sense). But seriously, I am not proud of it. I never liked to talk about people and their actions, because no one is better than the other.

Anyway, I admit, I am affected by words, but who is not. And in order to become strong, I need to be like the society wants – I need to gossip, swear and hate the world around me. I do not need to see the nice things, because that would make me too naive and boring. I might be mistaken, but aren’t the most interesting people these, who step on others, act like they know better and use others. Of course, this does not lead anywhere, but it is still done like this.

I guess it is called manipulation. I remember one person saying some nasty stuff to me. And not with a oh-I-just-made-a-joke-laugh-now voice. Logically taken, he of course had a point with it. I presume that he was sad about something; or rather not… But my reaction was, why do we think that we can say everything to other person. Don’t we care about the feelings of others. Hmm… most likely not. Why should we – we do not live for others, we live for ourselves, and we even die alone in a cold winter night (if we are lucky). Honesty and truth are dangerous – we might even believe every single detail that is said, just because we consider ourselves to be honest and we expect the same from our opponents. And in that moment, there is no critical mind, at least for me. Only a simple emotion. But, you enjoy using it, don’t you. You see the glow and suddenly, you can’t stop and you need to say something so smart, which makes the other look bad and gives you power over the other. Ahh… the sweet taste of evil... And just because you are bored or you feel like it. So in the end, do we need honesty? Or do we need to show our importance towards people, who are actually more smarter than us?

By smarter people, I mean sincerely happy people. I admire them, because they get up every morning with a smile on their faces. And what is even more admirable, they can actually smile to others, sincerely. They say that a smile prolongs your life and tears take it away. I would not like to be responsible for someone’s death (not that I am, but in general, it makes me think), but if I could make a person smile, even once, even with my stupid-silly-naive comments, then I feel better already. I just don’t feel good, when I do evil, even to those, who have manipulated me. If I would do it, it would not make me any better.

But I have learned one thing: I will not gossip about people, who I know nothing about and haven’t walked in their shoes at least a mile.

Hei people, respect to you, that you are doing what you are doing!