Here it goes – I am in love. There, I said it. Anyway, it feels wonderful. I am really happy and I keep daydreaming and thinking about this wonderful guy. He is nice and means a lot to me. Okei, fine, I will not tell you the whole story, but obviously we have some issued… like any other couple. But the thing is – why does it seem like the end of the world when we can´t solve them? May be it is just me…
I am the sort of person, who likes harmony in a relationship. So if there are problems, I will try to solve them or make an elephant from an ant. Well, the last one works sometimes too, but the mainly, if a couple has issues, they seriously need to talk. But sometimes you can not talk and there things are better left alone.
Serious topic, but I still wonder why we do it, if we alone have problems and in a relationship we have problems. And then we have double problems. Because I do not think that you can always share your problems with another… some are too private. Anyway, why not be single, figure out your life and then make a lovely connection, without too many big problems.
Or just be in a relationship when you are young and learn from your mistakes when you are older and wiser… probably a part of growing up.
But I still justify having a relationship at young age, because we need some comfort from people our age and we need some romance. Some just need it more than others, but how long can a person be alone… of course being single has its own privileges – you can do whatever you want and without any consequences. But it is not the same as having a certain person to care and cuddle and hold hands… isn’t this what the movies always show us. In some ways it is true – I feel better with another person next to me and telling me some silly jokes or serious stories. That is the privilege of a relationship.
And the best part is that your health is better, scientifically proven. These are these stupid facts that if you kiss your partner a lot, your immune system will be more resistant. And if you hug a person or hold hands, your body will be more relaxed and full of endorphins. Jei, happy molecules.
But no one told you about the heart aches, when you were younger. So, this is the main reason, why some would like to be rather alone and there are those, who just do not care if they are in or out. And I still keep wondering, how do other people live… do they care or not. Are they in or out. Or, as nowadays, somewhere in the middle, with doubts.
I know I am in. I am totally in. You know when you are stuck on a deserted island and you see a white ship in the distance and you watch it leave and you feel sadness in your heart. This is how I feel sometimes. But I am getting used to it… and I will say this, if people really care, they will make it work. At least I used to believe this, when I was smaller. I still hope it is true. There are different roads to take. We never know why we take these steps, but we choose - left instead of right. And there is no turning back… there can be a stop for peeing only.
P.S. I love you, my dear! And I wish you good night!
