So before going to sleep I was thinking of doing some writing, since I have felt like this for a long time. The topic is about how far can we actually reach and why should we do this. This time it is a bit more serious talk...
There are several people, who will just live for a purpose of knowledges, that one day they will be good at what they do. I admire them, since they are my friends and if not, then people who I am glad to claim as competition. But since I also see how they are slowly killing their lives with that goal, I start to wonder, is this what life is really about? Must we suffer loneliness and solitude in order to become good at what we do? And believe me, they are doing this day after day.
Scientifically, we are more able to work if we have endorphins in our bodies and those we get from laughter and socializing. Usually, if we study too hard, we do not have time for these. And still grabbing the next book to eat and understand would be the ultimate solution.
I have thought that a human brain can go on, because there is no limit – only emotional. In this conclusion, I have understood that studying can happen all the time. So, why did I stop my rapid studying mania?
One reason was that I finally understood that there are more things in life than just studying. You also must learn how to live and enjoy it. Also, we value the people, who are good at what they do, but we can also do those things with a different attitude. I guess these people aren’t exactly unhappy, they have just lost the true meaning of life.
This is the main problem of human nature – we need knowledges. Very distinctively described in “Faust”. Faust was so intelligent, but there was something still missing from his life, and that was brought to him by the devil. Falling in love is a distraction, at least to a person, whose sole goal is to get more and more information into his/her brain. And in the end these people forget how to live their life. Does intelligence make us more smarter about the world? Does it give us the comfort that we are on the right track and do not have to switch trains? Or are emotions just killing our brain and human nature?
Dwelling on the human nature, we are created as animals to follow our basic instincts. We are meant to enjoy emotions, but since a human brain has a giant capacity, then the ones who develop it and enjoy doing this process, they love (literally) their work. What will become of these people by the end of their life? Do they have children by the end of 40? Will they become rich and famous, as this is the ultimate goal? Do they know how to achieve these by not killing themselves before that?
Or is this life just a fiction – we cant, simply is not possible, to have everything what a human soul requires. We just have to make a compromise between our emotions and ultimate goals of fortune. But the wise people know that not everything that is only one obsessive goal will bring happiness. It might advance the world like Einstein or themselves, like Rockafeller in his early age. But in my opinion, that is not what life should be about.
I guess, every person in the end finds his or her way, but my ultimate goal it to have everything – I want to have the time for studying, for socializing and resting. And in the end achieving what I want in this life. And that is one ambition that takes some time. There is one thing I have learned from my mistakes and that is that it takes real courage to face, what you really want and what is important, combined with your true nature.
