There was a really cool duck song in Youtube, where the repeated question was: “Do you happen to have some … grapes?” So, do you?
I do. Eating them right now in the kitchen of my parents’ place. Really giant nicely ripe grapes. In the mean time trying to solve some occurring problems in my head. Firstly, I was wondering, should I be a good friend or a moral person. Here is the dilemma (not regarding the yummy grapes at all, unfortunately :S) – I do not know whether to say to a friend that he is being too pushy and that he hopes for too much. Or just to save my own nerves just ignore the person for the rest of my life. And then when we meet at a party of a common friend, it would be too weird. (Maybe it is already weird.)
It is never easy to have friends like this, because it makes you doubt about the unmoral world we live in. And I really wanted to live in the pink bubble, where everything is beautiful and nice and pink… did I mention pink :P Anyways, if that happens, again, then what is there left in this world. I try to be as strong and up-to-character as possible, but sometimes I just have the feeling, that these people just live in their own world and do not understand what is happening. It is especially difficult with people, who have not had any relationships (yes, I mean sex) in the past years (Do not know, how they can survive that long).
It would be fair to confront him and say, that I do not feel okei with this kind of situation, but I presume, that he will be insulted and heart-ached. Although, he is the one, who has those weird thoughts… hopefully not. But seriously, how do you put a sense in a person, who is not thinking with his head.
I guess we’ve all been through this. Many times we have been crying or kicking something just because our nerves could not take it anymore and we feel like there is no love for us left. We do not consider at all that the world goes on even without the pain. Go figure… And if one chooses to go on in the end, then there will still be a little part of us, which has doubts and self-critiques.
Hey, I am not weak… that much, it is just that I actually consider that person being my good friend. He might take advantage of that, but I will never know unless I confront him. So, here is the message I planned to write him: You have been disrespectful towards me and I do not like it. I feel like we cannot be friends anymore.
I decided that, by the way, after I sent him a message that I will bring him girls from my country (never mind the context) and he responded that he misses only me. Talk about awkward …
In the end, is it in our power to change friends that much. If they wish, they can be assholes or jerks or what ever they wish, but if it crosses the line, then the answer is simple – how far is the limit and how much do you really care for your friend. Deep down inside I hope he understands this, that I do not like it at all. And I hope one fair day he comes to his senses (or finds a woman :P). So we would all be a happy family… probably this is not the way it will happen. So just for the record, for myself or anyone else who happens to read this, please do not harrasse your friends; it makes them feel REALLY uncomfortable! And if it happens, try it with a joke at first, then with strong tone and then just do not give a crap about that person… Good luck to all of us in this place we call humain world! :D
